I finally was able to cross stitch one of my patterns myself again. I bought an embroidery stand at hawthorn handmade and it works for me. I can still not embroider for a long time, only about 30 min a day. But those 30 min a day give me chance again to do something that I love and find relaxing to do.
Now for what I did. Here is my seahorse pattern, you can find the pattern here.